Okay so not art per se – but is it weird the bruises kinda look like watercolor to me? hahaha! If I’m honest I like looking at them. It scratches my self-harm itch in a really weird way.
Totally accidental of course, I was trying to boost my exercise as a coping strategy for anxiety and incurred a few injuries – I have a tendency to go a little harder than my body wants or is ready for haha. The exercise-to-reduce-anxiety strat was working okay but I now have this beautiful leg and a torn meniscus so I’m finding that difficult to maintain. Still I keep trying…
I also thought a lot about why this makes me feel good. In a weird way, I think it feels good to match how I feel inside – on the outside. It’s like having a blurry self image all of the time – but suddenly when things line up, my image is in focus and that feels right.
Ugh, what’s wrong w/ me? lol