CategoriesThoughts Trapped Posted onSaturday, 30 July 2022, 1:34 AMSaturday, 30 July 2022, 5:48 PM The words float down like feathers in the black I frantically snatch them out of the air and Smash them … Continue ReadingTrapped
CategoriesArt Thoughts Waking Words Posted onMonday, 25 July 2022, 12:40 PMTuesday, 26 July 2022, 9:28 PM Todays word was humanistic. This weekend I got a chance to be a human. Not a broken vase, or bomb … Continue ReadingWaking Words
CategoriesThoughts The Eagle & the Owl Posted onFriday, 22 July 2022, 12:51 PMFriday, 22 July 2022, 1:40 PM I don’t know what it is that kicks off an entire night full of bad or wild dreams but last … Continue ReadingThe Eagle & the Owl
CategoriesThoughts maybe tonight? Posted onTuesday, 19 July 2022, 5:46 PMTuesday, 19 July 2022, 5:58 PM Wow. Moments ago I was SO out of it. I don’t actually think I was even me. I think maybe … Continue Readingmaybe tonight?
CategoriesThoughts more pain Posted onMonday, 18 July 2022, 8:50 PMMonday, 18 July 2022, 9:40 PM triggers. migraine. close my eyes to avoid light. Close my eyes… and flashbacks.. painful realistic flashbacks reminding me that no … Continue Readingmore pain
CategoriesThoughts More Posted onSunday, 17 July 2022, 9:14 PMSunday, 17 July 2022, 10:08 PM Memories from that time period are coming back. I was probably 14 when we met. Maybe even 13. The weird … Continue ReadingMore
CategoriesThoughts Target Memories Posted onSaturday, 16 July 2022, 12:57 AMSaturday, 16 July 2022, 12:58 AM I was doing some research on EMDR. I watched a few videos. I heard the practitioner talk about target memories. … Continue ReadingTarget Memories
CategoriesThoughts TW: CSA Sharp Posted onTuesday, 12 July 2022, 11:52 PMTuesday, 12 July 2022, 11:55 PM What I really feel… Is fear. And hurt. And more fear. And this pit in my stomach. And a tight … Continue ReadingSharp
CategoriesThoughts TW: CSA Matrix Posted onTuesday, 12 July 2022, 3:19 AMTuesday, 12 July 2022, 3:30 AM I started to fall asleep. And somewhere between sleep and awake, my brain started to flood. 20 or 30 disparate … Continue ReadingMatrix
CategoriesThoughts Fragments & Fear Posted onFriday, 8 July 2022, 10:30 PMSunday, 10 July 2022, 12:02 PM I felt good all day. Like REALLY fucking good. I think the wellbutrin is doing it’s job. But t here … Continue ReadingFragments & Fear
