The Green Man is believed to symbolise the cycle of life, death and re-birth. Also often associated with Spring after the long winter. I feel this. The weather is warming up, rain has brought lush greens, more and more people are vaccinated leading to more social gatherings – there’s so much joy to be found. It’s bittersweet. Touch of survivors guilt when I think about my brother – how he was weeks away from a life saving vaccine – he’d still be here, enjoying another Royals season… caring for the twins, getting up early to open up the store.
We were going to go out more, another meetup at the Green Lady lounge… the last place we hung out together before the pandemic shut everything down.
I’m trying to heal, to grow, to enjoy life to its fullest, but my body feels broken, my mind is in pieces. I’m not even sure who I am at times, but I’m trying. I’ll keep trying, for you, big bro.
