These two low-key saving my life every week lately lol. Special honor to Harry Mack (lyrical goddamn genius). And also my therapist, but I feel like a portrait would be real awkward lol so I’ll stick to celebrities 🤣 haha! In any case, just a lot of sad shit on my blog lately so wanted add some positivity; and shoutout to my people (including R and my friends) – ya’ll keep me going.
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It’s late (or early) 3AM; tried to drug myself into early night but my pot-addled brain wanted to work on art badly hence the portraits above. Pretty happy with how they turned out. I’m anxious about upcoming Father’s Day weekend. I’ve got the twins for the weekend and I started thinking about it while I was spinning on the bike… and I literally lost it for a few moments. Honestly, had I not been the one experiencing it, it would have been objectively hilarious to see someone sobbing and continuing to slowly pedal to the instructor’s motivations and energetic music lol (sorta that crying into your pint of ice cream moment hahaha).
The thing is, I am exhausted, broken, depressed and most days, I don’t even know why I keep going. But when I get time to listen to Marc Rebillet’s stream I get to laugh again. That dude is so authentic and his music is energetic and hilarious and pure creativity as it’s all improvised (same w/ Harry Mack’s freestyle). Marc always tells you he loves you at the end of his Sunday live-stream lol; you can’t help but have your spirits lifted. And Ally Love, my home girl, she speaks directly to your soul when you go on a ride with her. She’ll pause and look directly into the camera through some of the hard moments (or slow ones) and drop some dope words of wisdom. She’s made me tear up multiple times while riding. It’s pretty weird where one might find inspiration to keep living. This weekend it’s the twins; I’ll button myself back up and be what they need; and then keep going.
Hope is as much a verb as it is a virtue. Don’t give up!
Ally Love