Lost. Eternal. Lost. Eternal. Lost. Eternal.
The words are missing tonight. I’m sorry I keep getting lost… I’m sorry.
a dream…
“I was floating, suspended, in warm golden waters, asleep…but then suddenly someone reached in and pulled my arm and there was this bizarre sensation of being pulled through a membrane.. a viscous membrane not quite like water. But on the other side it was gentle and cool and dark. The figure that pulled me through was not discernible. Shadowy, but strangely maternal… and yet it felt like a part of me or maybe it was me. And in the dream I remember thinking that I wasn’t sure if she just pulled me into death or life… but it was from light to dark.. and the dark was like a star speckled aeon – vast and eternal. And for the shortest of moments… seconds in this dream … I felt completely at peace. My entire body and mind felt euphoric. And I thought to myself… that it was death… “this is what death feels like…”.
Light/Dark/Light/Dark/Light/Dark
I’m always light or dark never both.