2022 – Page 8 – Midnight

Couldn’t sleep tonight. Woke up at 5am and brain wouldn’t shut off. Overwhelming need to self harm. I hate myself. … Continue Readingwither

Thoughts

Dark, Dark, Dark

It will be okay, right? But, I feel inadequate in ever way. I just don’t measure up. I feel lost. … Continue ReadingDark, Dark, Dark

Thoughts

What is it like to be me? You have often thought of me as confident, sultry, sexy, impish. A perverse … Continue ReadingWho I am.

I tried. I tried to let her have some space…. and even with the 60 seconds of allowance… I can … Continue ReadingDeviant’s Song

Thoughts

I feel bruised. Depressed and like nothing matters. Because it doesn’t. and i could get up and move around and … Continue ReadingAlone

Thoughts

Parttectonics.com/the-door Maybe I’m just not strong enough.

All of me over the past year.

The MatrixOS (operating system) is the name I gave to the part of my brain that seemed to be locking me … Continue ReadingUnlocked

I’ve always been a little weird about this. The word, the concept, my understanding of faith. I’m typing this in … Continue ReadingSpirituality

So, one of the things that confuses me… about myself is that people often have regarded me as having high … Continue ReadingStrength