I end up in the basement in a lot of my dreams. I think i read somewhere long ago that basements are supposed to represent your deep unconscious mind. Makes sense. I hate that I spend so much time in them… and that… it’s never a pleasant experience. It’s always something unsettling, dark, eerie, or terrifying. There’s always anxiety involved.
Last night I had nightmare after nightmare. I couldn’t just sleep peacefully. First it was anxiety about a new leader at work (no reason for this just.. mind being weird), then it was.. around a baby.. that I was trying to rescue from a neglectful home… and then later i was pregnant myself but trying to hide it because I thought someone was going to take that from me… but it was really just my instinct to protect.. the same theoretical child.
In the house in this dream… there was a dark basement. I went below and it was like some strange ripley’s beleive it or not display of odd artifacts and antiques. I would pick them up and wonder why they were here. There was an old lady who asked me, “Do you want to know more about that?” I can’t remember if I said yes or not. I was scared, and wanted to leave, I needed to figure out a way to get that child out of here without alerting the older male (brother? dad?) in the house. Lots of fear, themes of hiding, escaping, neglect, fear of dominating male figure… trying to protect a child. My desires mixed in with my worst fears…and realities.
I wish i could remember what the objects were. They seemed old… like some sort of brass jewelry case full of rings and earrings and crap. Worn, not shiny anymore, gaudy, not my style at all. They weren’t mine. Maybe I might inherit them but I didn’t want any of this crap down in the basement… all crap. All these hidden secrets and artifacts… were things I didn’t want to look at… i left the basement in a hurry.
I’m so tired today I can barely keep my eyes open but I’m also very anxious. I’m going to try and take a small nap now that work is over… why am i so sad for no reason? I hope i save that kid in my dream… he was really cute.