CategoriesThoughts TW: SI Call of the Void Posted onTuesday, 15 February 2022, 11:39 AMTuesday, 15 February 2022, 11:39 AM Fighting for my life this week. Making some questionable decisions. All I see is suicide when I close my eyes. … Continue ReadingCall of the Void
CategoriesThoughts Religious Experience Posted onTuesday, 15 February 2022, 1:32 AMTuesday, 15 February 2022, 1:38 AM When I was 17 I dated a “priest in training” of a local episcopal church who also worked part time … Continue ReadingReligious Experience
CategoriesThoughts TW: SI Tired Posted onMonday, 14 February 2022, 4:55 PMTuesday, 15 February 2022, 1:53 AM I’m sad today. I actually had a lovely anniversary weekend with Rich. He was really sweet. I was pretty anxious … Continue ReadingTired
CategoriesThoughts TW: SI Fluvoxamine Posted onSunday, 13 February 2022, 4:00 PMTuesday, 15 February 2022, 1:48 AM I wanted to document my experience with the anti-depressant Fluvoxamine (25mg lowest dose btw) because I’m not very good at … Continue ReadingFluvoxamine
CategoriesThoughts Down Posted onWednesday, 9 February 2022, 12:35 PMWednesday, 9 February 2022, 3:54 PM Woke up late. Slept too deep. Missed a meeting. But because I’m so out of it, I don’t even care. … Continue ReadingDown
CategoriesPhotography Thoughts Relief Posted onTuesday, 8 February 2022, 2:49 PMTuesday, 8 February 2022, 9:14 PM Finally broke down and went to the doc. They gave me drugs lol, tramadol (narcotic) and some barbiturates for the … Continue ReadingRelief
CategoriesThoughts :< Posted onTuesday, 8 February 2022, 12:34 AMTuesday, 8 February 2022, 12:54 PM No sleep. Pain. Lingering dizziness and tension from migraine. Legs hurt so much from PT. Neck feels awful. Flashbacks. Cant … Continue Reading:<
CategoriesThoughts The Weekend Posted onMonday, 7 February 2022, 9:47 PMTuesday, 8 February 2022, 12:53 PM Migraine. Bad one. Been a while, but perfect storm this week. Period (a weirdly heavy one) and emotional drama and … Continue ReadingThe Weekend
CategoriesThoughts The Problem is… Posted onSaturday, 5 February 2022, 1:31 PMSaturday, 5 February 2022, 1:50 PM That I don’t really know who I am because my entire life has been driven by fear, survival, and insecurity. … Continue ReadingThe Problem is…
CategoriesThoughts Check-in Posted onThursday, 3 February 2022, 5:50 PMFriday, 4 February 2022, 10:07 AM I just can’t seem to feel anything. I was supposed to come to the gym and workout. Instead, I parked … Continue ReadingCheck-in
